Sidetracked- already?

So yesterday I was really ready to go, and then my son got sick and then I started feeling sick, and now we are both laying on the couches in the living room watching the kids channel at 1:00 in the morning. Life really gets in the way.

I have been trying to come up with what stops me from getting what I want- in life, and in my health goals, where did I come off the tracks? My trainer asked me yesterday if I was an overweight kid, I think she assumed I was. But I wasn't, my senior prom dress was a 5/6. So seriously how did this happen. I went to college, got a degree and thought I would enter the workforce doing something I really wanted to do. I didn't. I procrastinated, I got weird funny jobs, lets just say that one involved the holidays and a bell. I thought it was fun that I was different, that I went where the wind took me- job wise, I still live within 20 minutes of my hometown. But here I sit, as a 35 year old married woman, mother of 1, with no clue as to what I am doing. My son will be heading to first grade next year, giving me a lot of time on my hands. So what is my plan? I don't have one. I need to find a job, but I want to do something that I, well, want to do. I do work now but on a very part time basis. It would be great for us financially if I worked full time. But I don't want to sell out, I want to find my passion- but what is it??

So that's another aspect of me and something I am hoping to work out in this blog. I really have so much to get out and figure out- so this should go on for awhile, uuggghh.